just the sea and me

The waves say everything I can’t.

I hold it close every day..

 Everyone has their own dreams, and so do I.

Mine has been sitting quietly in my heart for a long time. It is a simple wish, but it means a lot to me. I have carried it with me through many seasons.

But some nights,.. my heart feels heavy. 

I ask myself, Is it too late? Am I brave enough? What if I fail?

and life keeps moving.. Work, family, and many other things fill my days. Sometimes my dream feels like a small light far away, and I am not sure I can reach it.

Still.. the light never goes out. 

Perhaps because this dream was never only mine. it's ours.

So I keep walking, slowly, one small step at a time. I don’t know where this road will take me. But I know one thing.. a dream that is still alive deserves a chance.

Maybe this is my time. 

Or maybe not yet. 

Either way, I will keep hoping.🚀

Life, too, is just a borrowed moment.

 

Even life is only passing through

The quiet side of life

In 2018, I realized that the less I know about others' business, the better off I am. I made a quiet decision.. to spend less energy on what happens in other people’s lives and more on what happens in mine. Since then, I’ve rarely shared my daily activities on social media, and I don’t spend much time scrolling through others’ either.

It wasn’t because of anyone in particular.. at that time, I simply realized that my mind feels lighter when it isn’t filled with too much noise. Without constant updates from everywhere, I have more room to think, to rest, and to notice my own life.

I’ve learned to enjoy and appreciate every phase, every process, and everything I’ve been through. I let myself learn, improve, and mature at my own pace, without feeling the need to show it to anyone.

My life is mine, and I’m grateful to live it in my own way.

Shikata ga nai

 

Terkadang, ada hal-hal yang membuat kita menyadari bahwa seberapa keras pun kita berusaha, seperti itulah hasilnya. Bukan karena kita tidak cukup kuat, namun seperti itulah dunia ditakdirkan.

Je t'aime

There are days filled with laughter and warmth,
moments that feel perfect and light,
moments that don’t need to be rushed,
explained, or worried over.

But,
there are other days too..

days that arrive quietly, carrying weight,
where the light thins and the air feels heavier,
and the same heart that laughed
learns how to endure.

On those days, nothing is broken.
Some moments are meant to be felt exactly as they are..
messy, awkward, uncertain.

In the quiet pauses and the loud chaos,
I’m learning how my ego tightens its grip,
how it reaches for answers, control, reassurance,
and how not every question needs an explanation.

I’m learning that not every unanswered feeling is a flaw,
and not every unease needs fixing.

Some days are simply lessons in presence.
to live gently,
to feel deeply,
and to cherish the rest of our time.

For many reasons

Hi?

Is everything okay?

For so many reasons, it kept unsaid. 

For so many reasons, it just remained that way.

And still.. a part of me is still waiting for the rest of the story. 

dpspb.