Jika aku menjadi..

Aku ingin menjadi ikan..

Ikan yang tidak kecil dan tidak besar,

Ikan yang tidak memakan ikan lain, 

Ikan yang tidak dimakan ikan lain, 

Ikan yang tidak terlihat ikan lain, dan ikan yang dengan bebas berenang mengitari luasnya lautan.

Aku ingin menjadi ikan,

Melihat puas gemerlap bintang, menjelajah masuk ke sela terumbu karang, mengumpat diantara sisa cangkang, bermain dari pagi hingga petang, dan tidak perlu khawatir harus kembali pulang. 

Aku..

ingin menjadi ikan. 

Beyond the affirmation

 Source : Photo by Olly Hoodyakova on Unsplash 

Instead of promising an ungraspable future, I'll simply allow myself to embrace it, always.

Every moment, minute, and second..

is precious.

With its uniqueness, I can feel, embrace, and cherish its moments. 

Laughter, joy, excitement, and even tears show the boundary clearly, but within those very boundaries, I find the endless depth of the connection.

and, it's odd. 

The oddness that makes me feel more alive, more connected to the truth of who I am or even who we are.

And despite its strangeness, 

this clarity allows me to appreciate the present with an intensity I never knew possible. It's not about clinging to an ideal future, but about truly living in the present, recognizing that every shared experience, good or challenging, adds to the profound tapestry of what we have. 

It's everything. 

Embracing the quiet : Isolophilia

I realise that being alone in a certain place makes me calm and relaxed..

which is why I find joy in my own quiet moments.

In a world that often celebrates achievements, connections, and external validation, I've found myself enjoying the opposite comfort.

It's not about disliking people, not at all.  

This isn't about shying away from the world; 

It's about how I recharge, how I think, and how I truly feel alive. Embracing the quiet surroundings and my own thoughts that I can hear. 

In this peaceful solitude, I truly thrive. 

Please, let me be.. 💕

The Paradox of Life

Aku pikir, aku akan menjadi orang dewasa yang terlihat keren. Berusaha menyampaikan idealisme, menjelaskan semua daya upaya, atau bahkan membela diri saat aku merasa benar.

Tapi..

Akhir-akhir ini, aku bahkan tidak dapat memahami jalan pikiranku sendiri.

Aku.. 

tidak punya tenaga untuk berdebat, berselisih atau bahkan menceritakan.

Dan, aku akui kali ini aku salah.

Aku pikir menjadi dewasa itu menyenangkan, 

sampai aku tau bahwa, menjadi dewasa itu.. melelahkan. 

if only,

If I could turn back time..

 I'd cherish the quiet moments of reflection,  journaling by the sea, 

and the way sky changed colors with each passing hour.

-Lombok, 2024-

endless journey

The sun shyly descended, and the last rays felt like..

a gentle whisper of 'goodbye' to the day's quiet moments.

- Bandung, 2024 -

A bloom, a doubt

 

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Growth requires pruning, even the prettiest flowers